Success

Followed plan to the letter. Indeed, the cheese shop was shut so I went for
the first time into the minimart near café 9 and browsed and bought cheese
and butter there. I sat for nearly an hour over my camomile tea working on
my rewrites. Despite the noise of music and bustle it wasn't too hard to
concentrate there, indeed being out and about lifted the gloom.
Anxiety didn't top 2/10 the whole adventure and I went straight to pick up
the child from school with not a glimmer of unease - this afternoon school
pick-up can really freak me out because it's such a high-pressure,
must-be-there gig.
Sadly child was in grumpy and reproachful mood and quite took the air out of
my sails. I wonder if I'm repeating the same dynamic with him that I did
with his father.
I don't think I get on well with people. I've been kidding myself these past
years.
Gloom, despite a day of nothing but triumphs.
Damn.