Half term and feeling fragile

OK, I've been on suicide watch again this weekend so I'm feeling fragile.
And I have a blind date on Thursday, so my heart is racing, and not just
with fear.
But most importantly it is half term and I want my son to do stuff he'll
enjoy and not just waste it on his Mac.
So today, I'm going to phone his school-pal's mom and arrange a play date.
And then I'm going to take him to Ecclesall Woods for a walk through the
leaves.
OK, the thought has sent my heart racing.
Right.
It's not far.
5 minute drive.
I'll take 6mg at...
...oh I forgot - he might be at his dad's till 4.
I'll phone his dad and ask for him back at 2pm.
At 2pm I'll take 6 mg
At half two we'll drive to the woods and park and walk for 20 minutes and
come home.
Easy.
Back by 3pm
Then we'll bake a cake together.
This morning I'll buy eggs. And for tea we'll have macaroni cheese with
poached pears for pudding. Buy cheese, milk and pears.
This morning I'll work.
Dare I drink coffee? I've been sleeping so little of late, I think I'll need
it to think straight.
Phone ex
Buy 4 things
Phone school mom
Work
Have lunch
I'll tell you how I did later