Another 3 Years wasted.
And I've stopped trying.
I mean, I've conquered Tesco. Sainsbury's is still a challenge.
But I've not tried anywhere else in months.
I'm deferring until:
I've made current work deadlines
I have a new car
The summer hols
ummmm
any number of reasons.
I've put my life on hold.
That date I mentioned a couple of years ago.
He moved in.
Turned out to be an alcoholic with sociopathic tendencies.
He moved out. (That was a scary day. He did not want to go. He said he'd made a commitment to me. I'd never even asked him to move in. He just did. Like a steamroller)
Whatever. That was a couple of years back now and apart from the occasional drunken email from him, he's history (I hope)
But I'm kind of stalled. Can't move forward, can't move back. Waiting for my son to grown up so I can breathe again.
I know I should live NOW and not defer but I'm overwhelmed by people and work and being a mother. My life gets interrupted by a phone call/visit, on average every 1 hour and 12 minutes.
I'm waiting for a long enough space between people to concentrate on myself.
I wish everyone would go away and leave me alone.
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